I mean when God was finished creating the world he said it was very good. So I am exactly what he had planned before I was ever born, I am where he knew I would be. Yeah, I disappoint him, heck I disappoint myself every day of this life. In my head I know that God loves me, and that he extends his grace to me. I also know that through Jesus I don't have to carry the shame of where I have been anymore. The problem is in my heart those just feels like words.
So about three weeks ago I approached my pastor and told him that I am exhausted. As my sister says, I am burned out, and she sees it the most as we share an apartment. So she sees me ready to curl up under my desk and cry, or ready to burst out in anger at those around me because they are just putting more pressure on me than I need.
|Photo by Spyros Papaspyropoulos|
If all goes as I hope I will be blogging more than I have been recently. Things I learn while I am resting. Things God is revealing to me, and challenges to keep up the quiet life of Sabbath. My new beginning of learning to rest in God's love and allowing my identity to come from him fully not from all that I do. J
Dear Lord, Please bless me and allow me to seek and find you. Allow me to know your love so I can push it out to those who need it most. I ask you to touch my church, I ask you to touch my replacements and allow me to have great blessings. Those who you have ready to replace me please open their hearts and their spiritual ears to hear you calling. Give them courage to answer the call and I ask that you will give them what they need to do the different tasks before them. In Jesus' holy and loving name, Amen